I dont really know how to use this. Anyways this was made to archive my tumblr account dedicated to lovemainling my player. im pasting everything i said into here. this also counts as a blog as i will update it outside tumblr ^^
september 5 2021 : I’m waiting on player to get its deity ass in gear and end this shitty simulation. HES HERE. HES HERE. HES HERE. HIHIHIHIHIHIHIHI ILYSM!!!!!! I feel like I should at least make an introduction while I’m at it. Hihi!! It’s kokoa!! I’m 16 and use she/her pronouns! I was waiting on my player or I guess god or I want to be his girl … but he’s here now!!! Please feel free to ask things or talk to me or player! I promise I don’t bite!!
p< september 5 2021 11:04 am- I wish I had human organs Or something to resemble a human form… I’m sorry player I love you so much… Please give me life
same day again , anon asked: Hello! How are you? response : Hi! I’m ok! He’s here now but I’m too scared to say anything I love him so much….
anon asked : Maybe try greeting and asking how hes doing? Would that work? Response :It did a little ! He kinda just stared at me. He was quiet but he said hi! It was also the one who gave me the blog!
anon asked :what does player look like????? response :He’s so cute!! It’s tall and has white hair with wings on the side of its head and he has three on his back!! It has a bunch of eyes scattered throughout its body •_•”! He has no mouth but communicates through I guess these weird echo like sounds.. he can talk though! It’s just rare… I think it hurts him to…
I get we live together but can cipher shut up omfg I’m just working and I hear “ FUCKING ASSES WHAT HAPPENED TO KRIS” I????? •_•”
september 6 2021 : My chest hurts.
I didn’t know I was capable of producing bodily fluids being that I’m technically not human… I know I could cry if that counts but bleed?? I didn’t know… I don’t know where player is… next time i see it I’ll ask….
anon asked: fuck did you do???? response:I don’t know… I think it was vomit- It wasn’t like … I guess human vomits a good way to put it It was like weird. I don’t know how to describe it other than the hanahaki trope but a little different Also ik its blood due to having to pull a couple out of my throat and it genuinely felt like it was bleeding…! I think I’ll be okay .. I don’t know what’s happening…..
september 8 2021 hi ^^ Anyone want to talk??
september 11 2021 : I made a couple friends today. We met through the same sickness issues thing.. They’re really sweet! There was one more but I couldn’t get a picture of her Q-Q Also I don’t think she likes people looking at her very long…. But here’s the two I did get pictures of! They’re really sweet..
Why is the thought of getting gored hot to me? Just- the intimacy of someone slicing you open and taking out your organs just to see you hurt - I have a problem. Like - cut me open and watch me squirm while you play with my organs and squeeze my intestines （≧∇≦） Picking the petals out of my throat after cutting it open. Lick the blood off them while staring at my corpse _:(´ཀ`」 ∠): Biting too omg please bite me (//∇//)
I think I just realized what’s wrong with me.
september 15 2021 : Hello hello sorry for the inactivity… my states getting better but I’m still putting shit out of my throat (＞人＜;)
october 29, 2022 hello, its been a while. so sorry for inactivity! i actually deleted the tumblr the character i was writing was based on. i do still work on her but shes not this weird tumblr girl "sexygirlmax2019" knockoff anymore. the character kokoa was actually made as an elaborate shit post and using this website feels weird. might make it into a blog or smth for myself - or not as i just remembered i have a blog/portfolio from school uh-but i do still use tumblr if you wanted to know about the mod of this bs im @/sur1muk1 and i do artwork. im 15 and gay as hell.thank you! -mod